Nov 012010
 

I love the face of this carved angel sculpture in Santa Fe, New Mexico. She looks so wise and a bit sad, with the long deep cracks running from eyes to chin and her paint fading with time and weather. I had a birthday last month, so I can relate to the poor old gal ;-) .

Happy Autumn!

Kat

Aug 312010
 

This image comes from my friend Hugh Hadley, who is a wonderfully thoughtful and creative person. You can follow him on Twitter @CoonCatt – and you should, because he’s a real sweetheart!

Please respect his copyright on this image and don’t use it for anything without his permission. You can write to me here (see my email link in the right column) and I will pass your request along to him. Thanks for honoring the photographers featured here by respecting their copyrights!

Apr 052010
 

I have been asking myself that question a lot lately – especially when people quiz me, “So, what do you do?” I used to answer first that I am a writer and photographer who also paints and then I would add, “But for a living I am a fundraiser and marketing specialist.” Now I hem and haw on the answer and sometimes land on, “I have no idea. Lots of things, I guess.” Oh well, I always hated that question anyway and receiving the sideways looks of confused strangers kind of humors me. I know I am supposed to know the answer to that question - and I do; I just don’t know how to deliver it in a tidy sentence.

This career uncertainty leads me back to launching this blog. I kept hearing from my creative friends that it should be all about my art, my photography or my writing. My business-minded friends suggested I use it to communicate about fundraising or marketing in emerging media. When I said, “How about all of those things?”  to any one of them the responses were always, “Just focus on one thing you’re really good at!”

Hmm… what if I am really good at lots of different things?

I don’t think that most people believe that having talents for lots of different things is truly possible but, being both a left and right-brained thinker, I know that it is. Several brain tests I have taken demonstrated the same results: I am both analytical and creative, a realist and a dreamer (oh, and I am a true Libra).

I think the fact that my brain function is fairly evenly balanced between the two hemispheres is also the reason why I manage to shoot some good photos. I understand the technical wizardry required to capture a low light, high-speed shot and I can see the final image in my head before I even engage the button. Friends who go out shooting with me laugh that, even with digital photography and the ability to get off a hundred shots of the same subject (allowing you to hedge your bets that at least one shot will be great), I still shoot only a few frames and then I am off to the next subject. I usually know if the lighting is right, subject placement works and if the picture tells a story or will have visual appeal.

My first camera was a vintage Hasselblad rangefinder that an elderly neighbor gave to me when I was 8 years old. He bought it in Germany after WWII, before he returned to the states as an Army captain. It was heavy and shot incredibly clear and detailed images. My poor mother spent a small fortune developing film at the local drugstore every week. It was then – at the ripe old age of eight –  that I decided I was going to be a photographer and a writer when I grew up.

Over the years I owned a few Canons SLRs and then finally a DSLR. My first film Canon was stolen in the Yukon and, more recently, my DSLR Canon was stolen abroad when I loaned it to friends for their vacation. They offered to replace it, but both were recently out of work and struggling financially. I could not ask them to buy me a new camera. Unfortunately,  I had also let the insurance lapse because I knew I would be buying a new DSLR soon. That was a year ago.

After having my DSLR stolen, it struck me oddly that my new camera of choice was my iPhone. Nevertheless, I got off some great shots with it and at least felt like I was still living in the world of photography – even if only on the outside of town. Then I dropped my iPhone on a cement floor one evening and that was the end of my photo-shooting adventures.

Most people who know me would tell you that I am the friend who is almost never without a camera. I knew from experience that it was agonizing for me to have to say, “Oh, I wish I had my camera so I could take a picture of that!” So, I made sure that I always had a camera in my car, purse, backpack, or slung around my neck. Now, I am completely cameraless and have had to get used to life without one.

I never write about the divorce I am going through – not on Twitter, Facebook or here. It is a painful, difficult and very personal experience that I am sure many of you can relate to. Frankly, I get so tired of talking about it with close friends and family that I am thrilled to have a “virtual circle ” of friends who are oblivious and therefore ask me nothing of it. Because of the dissolution of both my marriage and the nonprofit agency I once ran, I am using all of my wits (both left and right-brained ones) to keep afloat economically and emotionally. It has been quite a valuable learning process. I have had to adapt to doing more with less and to simplify, simplify, simplify. Still, despite the difficulties, I am so much happier and healthier as a person now that I am in control of my life again. I have also noticed that my art, my writing and – most especially – my photography have become more enriched and colorful (the same is true of my friendships).

Friends sympathetically ask me how I can still be a photographer without owning a camera.  To me, that is like asking a blind person how they can still be a human. I still “see” the photos I would shoot and in my mind (sometimes even out loud, which earns me a few odd looks) I observe something I would ordinarily shoot with my camera and I say “click!” Now it is stored in my brain – I just regret that I cannot share those images with others.

Once this challenging cycle in my life is over and the bloom emerges again from the thorns, I will have a good camera and be able to share those images with my friends and family, as I have been doing since I was eight years old. You can take the camera away from the photographer, but the photographer remains – and this too shall pass.

Namaste,

Kat

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Nov 062009
 

I was out riding my mountain bike the other day, my iPhone stuck in my jacket pocket, and was stopped mid-pedal by this scene. I took out my iPhone and shot the image below. Then, I just stood there and stared at it for a while.

I am not a religious person, but my spirit is tied very deeply to this Earth. It is what makes me believe in God. To me, this image is like the Light of God bursting onto the Earth. That is why I love photography, or maybe that is why I see photo subjects as I do… I so appreciate the beauty of this amazing planet of ours!

Further up the path, you travel between the two enormous Cottonwood trees and ride parallel to the Rocky Mountains along a mesa for a ways. Hard to believe that just a few days ago, this was all buried under 3 feet of snow. Now it is 73 degrees F! I love that about living in Colorado… it’s beautifully unpredictable.

~Kat

suntrees

Jun 012009
 

I tend to do a lot of things simultaneously and have therefore labeled myself a Multi-tasker, which one good friend points out is an impossible claim to make. He insists that no matter what, I can’t actually be doing more than one thing at a time. So, as a matter of semantics, we agreed that I am a Serial Tasker – someone who does multiple things back-to-back.

As a Serial-tasker,  I always have a painting underway on a petite French easel that’s permanently stationed in a corner of my dining room (even my dining room multi-tasks!). It’s also likely that if I am awake, my Mac is running TweetDeck, Mail, iTunes, Photoshop, Safari and probably Word & Acrobat. In each window I am working on a task that has some sort of deadline pending – some sooner than others and some just goal deadlines I’ve created for myself and I continually putter away at.

Chances are also good that I am cooking something while running back and forth in the house between my computer and my easel. The kitchen is between the two rooms anyway – so why not make a risotto or roll some sushi as I am passing through? There’s a lot of useful simmer time that I can capture to paint a layer on the canvas or add a digital layer to my psd file (Photoshop junkies got that reference). Better yet… I squeeze in both - occasionally burning a meal in the process, but not often.

The one thing that  I can’t do without focused concentration is writing. I can do several writing projects at once, as long as they are similar in nature, but I can’t mix in other tasks with writing. I need solid concentration time for that particular passion.  Even if I step away from a writing project, I need relative peace so I can ruminate over what I am going to be writing. In college I wrote entire academic papers in my head before I sat down to put the words on my computer screen. It used to drive my roommates nuts that I would write and write through the night, before a major paper was due, never sleeping and then turn it in the next day and receive a higher grade than they’d received  for papers they’d spent weeks working on.  As any other writer might say… hey, it’s my “process!”

I have been a Serial-tasker as long as I can remember. It was a skill that was honored in my family because my father is the same way – both very left-brained and right-brained. I proudly take after him. He used to teach me how to make gunpowder in the garage when I was in grade school (his way of teaching me chemistry) but then we’d go out and tend to our elaborate Japanese garden that he so adored or take a walk through the forest behind our house. He would bring a field guide along and identify every plant, bug and tree for me along the way – then look at his pocket watch and realize that the blackberry pie he was baking was ready to come out and we would have to run back to the house.  He and I would have picked and washed the blackberries at sunrise that day. My father is also ambidextrous, which I am not (my left hand is just there to help my right hand tie shoes and lift heavy objects).  I almost hate to think of all the additional things that I could accomplish if I too was gifted with the skilled use of both hands!

It wasn’t until I hit middle school that my multi-tasking ability became a subject of ridicule from my teachers. I was accused of “lacking focus,” being “flighty,” or having my “head in the clouds” because I would be doodling some tremendous dragon on my PeeChee while listening and taking notes on a teacher’s presentation. Thank goodness iPods didn’t exist back then or I am sure I would have performed everything to a soundtrack. Oddly, it didn’t seem to matter to my teachers that I was a straight A student. They wanted me to “focus!”  

My orchestra teacher wanted me to put my focus on my flute performances and give up volleyball, soccer and track. But I was first chair in the woodwind section, so why did I need to give up anything? My volleyball coach pressed on me that I should focus on one sport so I could excel in it, but I was good enough to stay on all of my teams and still have fun. I certainly wasn’t the star, but I was a good team player that helped the superstars stand out (I was a pretty good goalie, though). Being a team player is central to who I am. I don’t care how good you are at spiking the ball, you still need a teammate to provide you a good set up or to pass the ball so the power center-fielder could take a shot at the opponent’s goal (although I am useless with my left hand, I have a heck of a good left footed kick!).

I’ve always been told to focus, focus, focus and there were times when I really tried.  I tried in college to focus on a major and came out with two majors and two minors. I tried to focus on one career but have loved the multiple fields that I’ve chosen. I never believed that my serial-tasking, multi-faceted personality was the curse that others seemed to think it was, but I learned that people preferred me to be more one-dimensional so they could categorize me and check me off their lists. I thought everybody’s brain worked like mine did, so I could never figure out why I was able to get more done in a day than most people could accomplish in 3 days. Seemed to me that they were the one’s who lacked focus.

As I got older I was awarded a new label to explain my “lack of focus” and multiple interests and activities: I was now referred to as high energy. I liked that term a whole lot more, so I embraced it. Today they would probably say I have ADD – and they would be wrong. I have the ability to focus on one thing for a long time, I just prefer to focus on lots of different things at the same time. Still, I can start on a painting and work on it all day, finally putting away my brushes and paints at 3 AM. 

Upon becoming an adult I knew I could take advantage of my serial-tasking skills and I used them to propel myself into several interesting careers.  I was often promoted within a few months of joining a company – which sounds great in theory – but it doesn’t always make you friends with people who feel left behind on a promotion they’d wanted. In order to get along better with my co-workers, I learned to give them my ideas in an indirect way and not take credit for them later. Soon, I was seen as an effective mentor and worked my way into management and eventually led large departments and became a nonprofit CEO.

I am often stumped when a person asks that presumptive question we all get asked when we’re introduced to someone new, “So what do you do?”

Even as a full-time CEO, I had trouble answering that question. I stammer, “Uh… uh, well, I uh…” The problem with that question is that my head cycles through all of the things that I “do” and it takes me a few seconds to land on the answer I realize they want, Oh! Work! You want to know what I do for work! The questioner often looks at me curiously, like I must suffer from advanced dementia. I know they must also be wondering how I could possibly manage anything, let alone from the position of a CEO, but I get along pretty well. I’m smart enough to hire a stellar staff. In fact, I tend to hire other Serial-taskers, like myself. 

Although I have now reached a position in my career where I am high enough on the corporate food-chain not to be criticized for my “lack of focus” because I get things done, I still baffle people who need to make up their minds about me. Are you an artist, a photographer, a fundraiser, a salesperson, a marketer, a gardener, a writer, a graphic designer, a gourmet cook, or a career consultant??

Yes! Yes to all of those things!

You’ve probably realized by now that I’m using my story to get to a message for you to leave with…

Don’t let anybody else define who you are. You and you alone have the power and responsibility to define yourself and the life you want to create out of that. Anyone who tries to define you isn’t doing it in your best interest. They are doing it to make themselves comfortable. If you are in a career you hate or that simply bores you to tears, you have a responsibility to your own happiness to look very closely at why you are there. Is it for money, prestige, security, or something else? Maybe you just got caught up in a stream of jobs and found yourself there? Whatever the reason, if you don’t enjoy it, chances are you are not the best you can be at it anyway.

I love consulting with people about making life-affirming career changes. I feel like I am helping people who’ve somehow become lost in the woods and need to find themselves again. I don’t have all the answers – just helpful suggestions. I’ve found that most people know in their guts what they want to do anyway. They just need me to help them come up with a plan to get themselves there. Ask my former employees who remain in contact with me years later. One of my favorites is living out her dream in the Peace Corps after she and I had several heart-to-heart conversations and I had to threaten to fire her if she didn’t follow her dream. I didn’t of course! I sent her to grant writing workshops instead so she had a skill the Peace Corp would value. Obviously, it was valuable to me as her supervisor too. She now writes large grants for girls’ empowerment programs in Albania. I’m very proud of her.

Please contact me with your questions. I welcome them!

Namaste,

Kathleen

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